Valorem Gadriel (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
thecodexabides) wrote2025-01-01 01:22 pm
thecodexabides) wrote2025-01-01 01:22 pm
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Gadriel's busy praising the Emperor or something. He'll get back to you asap.
( but she hated that. She didn't want that. It wasn't fair.)
I felt everything. I heard everything. I know who killed me.
But you did it out of mercy. You did it to protect other people.
I'll never blame you for it, for whatever that's worth.
I felt everything. I heard everything. I know who killed me.
But you did it out of mercy. You did it to protect other people.
I'll never blame you for it, for whatever that's worth.
Did I?
Are you certain that that was why I did it?
[Because he's not, anymore.]
Are you certain that that was why I did it?
[Because he's not, anymore.]
Yes.
You tried to get me back, but I wasn't in there. I wasn't coming back. Killing me was a mercy — a freedom. Most wouldn't be able to do it, and I would have just suffered more; hurt more people.
You tried to get me back, but I wasn't in there. I wasn't coming back. Killing me was a mercy — a freedom. Most wouldn't be able to do it, and I would have just suffered more; hurt more people.
I succeeded because I am exactly what they said about me here. That I am dangerous. Too powerful to be safe around.
I always felt safe around you, Gadriel. ( She did, truly, when they had those moments together that were always ruined by tragedy. By her. )
What you did was a kindness, one I'd ask you to do if it ever truly happened, even if I hate knowing how it would hurt you.
What you did was a kindness, one I'd ask you to do if it ever truly happened, even if I hate knowing how it would hurt you.
You should not. No one should.
Because I would do it again. [It was his duty, to extirpate heresy, to purge evil. He would do it again. But he shouldn't. ]
Because I would do it again. [It was his duty, to extirpate heresy, to purge evil. He would do it again. But he shouldn't. ]
But I did. I still do.
You wouldn't hurt me now, would you? So what's the problem.
You wouldn't hurt me now, would you? So what's the problem.
The problem is ME. [If it were video he would hold up his hands, show the stain of her blood still on his armor because he hadn't had the heart or stomach to wash it off yet.]
How can I come near you with hands that have spilled your blood?
How can I come near you with hands that have spilled your blood?
( it is a fair point, but Night Sky doesn't like pushing people away, especially someone she likes. Someone who was willing to do something truly terrible to give her the freedom she always wanted. Not many people would understand that.)
I — I don't know. If it's too much for you, I won't make you. I'll keep my distance, if that's what you want.
I — I don't know. If it's too much for you, I won't make you. I'll keep my distance, if that's what you want.
[A heavy sigh. The last thing he wanted was to be a burden, to be something she had to avoid. ]
Sky, you do not have to avoid me.
I am glad you are safe.
Are you at your home? With the bath?
Sky, you do not have to avoid me.
I am glad you are safe.
Are you at your home? With the bath?
But it sounds like you want me to, so I don't know what you want, Gadriel.
I am.
I am.
Because I do not know what I want, either!
I want it to never have happened. But that is not possible.
I want it to never have happened. But that is not possible.
( there's a soft, little sound of distress.)
It's not. I guess... take some time to think? I'll be here, if you need me.
You know where to find me.
It's not. I guess... take some time to think? I'll be here, if you need me.
You know where to find me.
How is Nina?
Are she and Finnich...allies still?
[Gadriel has priorities.]
Are she and Finnich...allies still?
[Gadriel has priorities.]
I don't know. She's been upset.
What the hell happened exactly? From your point of view?
What the hell happened exactly? From your point of view?
The...daemon killing or with Nina?
[He gets in so much trouble it's hard to keep straight.
He'll just presume he means with Nina.]
She came to yell at me.
Finnick was there. He and I
disagreed.
As we do.
And I sent her after him.
[He gets in so much trouble it's hard to keep straight.
He'll just presume he means with Nina.]
She came to yell at me.
Finnick was there. He and I
disagreed.
As we do.
And I sent her after him.
She yelled at you because she was worried about you.
And what is the daemon killing?
And what is the daemon killing?
she worries far too much about me.
I do not deserve her concern.
[He hates this story, because he knows he doesn't tell it right, ever.]
A daemon possessed an...acquaintance of mine. I tried to force it to leave. It did not.
I had to kill her.
I do not deserve her concern.
[He hates this story, because he knows he doesn't tell it right, ever.]
A daemon possessed an...acquaintance of mine. I tried to force it to leave. It did not.
I had to kill her.
She does. Which is why you need to stop upsetting her.
Well, you got it. There isn't anything you can do about it now.
Nina said it was a clone of your friend. Not the real her, right?
Well, you got it. There isn't anything you can do about it now.
Nina said it was a clone of your friend. Not the real her, right?
it is not something I try.
Or intend. To do to her.
A clone?
No. Clones are psychic Nulls. She would not have been able to perform sorcery if she were a Null.
Or intend. To do to her.
A clone?
No. Clones are psychic Nulls. She would not have been able to perform sorcery if she were a Null.
You probably didn't listen to her, right?
Maybe in your world but we're not in your world. We're all from different worlds, Gadriel. That means things are different and you're coming up against things you don't know.
Looking at them like they're something you do know weakens you against them. It's foolish.
Maybe in your world but we're not in your world. We're all from different worlds, Gadriel. That means things are different and you're coming up against things you don't know.
Looking at them like they're something you do know weakens you against them. It's foolish.
I listen to
and value
everything Nina tells me.
She is my sister.
She understands
It did not weaken--.
It did weaken me. You are correct.
I should have acted without hesitation. I shall in the future.
and value
everything Nina tells me.
She is my sister.
She understands
It did not weaken--.
It did weaken me. You are correct.
I should have acted without hesitation. I shall in the future.
Good.
She tries, she really does. But you two fighting messed with her. Family is important to her.
That’s…wait, that doesn’t actually sound good.
What do you mean by that?
She tries, she really does. But you two fighting messed with her. Family is important to her.
That’s…wait, that doesn’t actually sound good.
What do you mean by that?
I was not trying to fight with him.
he refused to take my offer. I would not have fought him.
My problem is I have forgotten who I am. I have let this place corrupt me.
It has
obviously
caused problems.
he refused to take my offer. I would not have fought him.
My problem is I have forgotten who I am. I have let this place corrupt me.
It has
obviously
caused problems.
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