He did not want children, though little Elion had made him feel that there was definitely some reward in raising a thing from helpless to competent he enjoyed.

"It is...complicated." Really complicated, and stupid and embarrassing and he hated all of it. "I can," what's the delicate 'you're talking to a refined beautiful creature' way to say this? "experience things. I just cannot participate. As I should." SURE that was super clear, right?

"This place makes one expect, well, otherwise." He shrugged. He was trying to accept it and move past it.